Re-joining Society

I feel like a normal person right now, like a functioning member of society, not an unemployed waste of life! How wonderful. Gosh, I really need something to do...I can't wait to (hopefully) get into that class. I had to get an oil change this morning super early and now I'm waiting in a cafe until it is time to get my haircut. I'm sitting here with my tea and breakfast and good ambient music and I'm in a super, fantastic, awesome mood. I guess being out in the world will do that to you! With my headphones on, it even sounds like the muffled voices are speaking other languages around me so I kind of feel like I am back in Europe. Mmmm, add a French track on Pandora and in my mind I'm almost there, I need a crepe or something....

So Julian and I have been emaling a lot, it feels like old times. I don't think it is particularly a bad thing to be in contact. Right? I mean our conversations have been relatively normal and nice, I like that. I'm not setting any rules to this whole breakup situation and I guess he has abandoned his, I don't know. I'm not going to put pressure on anything.

I have an appointment with my therapist today. It sounds weird saying I have a therapist but it is a free service. After my father passed away, Hospice said they provided free counseling so I took advantage of it since I was a complete mess. Ironically, the woman I got paired up with actually knew my dad. My dad was a therapist too and they worked together at another place. It is nice that when I talk about him, that she can really understand how amazing he was. Also, she's a half-sy like moi because her father is from Mexico. So when I talk about the crazyness of my family, she can actually understand.  Lately it seems like we've been more friends than we have therapist-patient (wait is that the right word, patient? I sound mental) and she's just been really awesome to talk to.

Also I get to see my fabulous friend after that, I'm feeling like it is going to be a good day...which is funny because I slept horribly last night. It was one of those nights where you toss and turn and the cold you thought was "minor" turns out to control your comfort level or lack there of. Since I've been feeling emotionally and physcially down the last few days, I'm going to make this good feeling last...

Alejandro might get online soon which also adds to my good mood this morning. I haven't talked to him in a few days. I always feel like I'm interrupting him at work. We used to talk while he was working and I always felt like I was going to get him in trouble because people were constantly asking him things and showing him papers. I did kind of like seeing him in a suit though...not going to lie about that.
These days though, I figure, if he is busy, I probably shouldn't distract him, if he wants he can contact me since I am not exactly busy these days.

Anyway, I guess I better get going. I really, really need a haircut! Yay, finally.

I haven't posted any music lately...let's see....here's a good one for you guys...it is the one that made me feel like I was in Europe again....